Faith Tested

My faith is tested many times every day,
and more times than I’d like to confess,
I’m unable to keep the banner of faith aloft.
If a promise is not kept, or if a secret is betrayed,
or if I experience long-lasting pain,
I begin to doubt God and God’s love.
I fall into the chasm of disbelief
and I cry out in despair.
But then the Spirit lifts me up again,
and once more I am secured in faith.
I don’t know how that happens,
save when I cry out earnestly I am answered immediately and returned to faithfulness.
I am once again filled with Spirit
and firmly planted on solid ground.